So... if you didn't have this seal obligating you to defend yourself, would you not defend yourself? Fighting for your life when you feel threatened is an instinct. It's biology. It's what you're supposed to do.
[Her expression turns stony.]
You using your past mistakes as an excuse to get someone to end your life because you can't do it yourself? We have a name for that back home. It's called suicide by cop. And you are not allowed to do that. You have a son. You don't get to be that selfish, Kratos. I don't care what you've done - you need to fight for him if you won't fight for yourself. You know what you really have to lose? Lloyd is what you have to lose if you walk away and pretend you're doing the noble thing by hating yourself. That's the easy way out, and you don't get to take it because you brought another person into the world and you have to own that. And if you don't, then you're not the man I thought you were.
CW: suicide
[Her expression turns stony.]
You using your past mistakes as an excuse to get someone to end your life because you can't do it yourself? We have a name for that back home. It's called suicide by cop. And you are not allowed to do that. You have a son. You don't get to be that selfish, Kratos. I don't care what you've done - you need to fight for him if you won't fight for yourself. You know what you really have to lose? Lloyd is what you have to lose if you walk away and pretend you're doing the noble thing by hating yourself. That's the easy way out, and you don't get to take it because you brought another person into the world and you have to own that. And if you don't, then you're not the man I thought you were.