[Fai doesn't let himself break down in front of other people--least of all his traveling companions. Letting them see how badly he hurts would be letting them get too close. He can't do that.
Except Ashura had done that for him, hadn't he? Shown the others everything about him, every ugly, bloody, painful part of his past. All the things he'd never wanted anyone to know. All the reasons why getting too close to him is such a terrible idea.
He can't help any of that now. But maybe it's not such a bad thing to just be a mess for a little while, to accept that he's a mess and figure out how to deal with it instead of slapping on a smile and soldiering forward. Mokona must be nearby. Maybe Syaoran is too. They can regroup and find the others after they rest for a bit.
What a fright they must look, the towering ninja with his sword across one shoulder and a bloody magician slumped against the other. After a moment Fai even lets out a soft laugh, though he doesn't move.]
I think we're both scaring the locals, Kuro-puppy.
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Except Ashura had done that for him, hadn't he? Shown the others everything about him, every ugly, bloody, painful part of his past. All the things he'd never wanted anyone to know. All the reasons why getting too close to him is such a terrible idea.
He can't help any of that now. But maybe it's not such a bad thing to just be a mess for a little while, to accept that he's a mess and figure out how to deal with it instead of slapping on a smile and soldiering forward. Mokona must be nearby. Maybe Syaoran is too. They can regroup and find the others after they rest for a bit.
What a fright they must look, the towering ninja with his sword across one shoulder and a bloody magician slumped against the other. After a moment Fai even lets out a soft laugh, though he doesn't move.]
I think we're both scaring the locals, Kuro-puppy.