break out the teal deers!

[aloadeddie]

THE CR TL;DR MEME

HOW IT WORKS:

1. List your character(s)!
2. Others respond with "what does your character X think of my character Y?" or some variation.
3. Respond to them! Break out those teal deers!
4. Generate some discussion about your CR!
5. PROFIT!

Comments

[bacondivination]

Loki hates that Thor is here.

Now, there's a few worse things that could happen. For example...

No, actually, right now? This is the start of one of his major worst case scenarios and he hates it. He's not ready. He had plans, and they aren't all in place, and he doesn't know how to actually be the Loki that Thor actually really loves. He's aware abstractly that his brother has strong feelings for him and has shamelessly used that in the past, but Kid Loki was a blessing that one can't scoff at for Thor and everyone knows it.

What's really unfortunate is that in a matter of days, he's already starting to very personally get to see where he could get used to that. Even when Thor aggravates him, he does like a good chunk of how he's being treated. Loki is certain that he'll never get anything like that kind of positive regard, not for himself. It's not like he wants trust, though that could be useful in the right circumstances, because no one should ever trust him. The other parts, though, those are nice. He's kind of writing off the ease of these feelings coming to him as another sign his young role is influencing him very heavily, but it's really not just that.

Even Loki knows it's nice to feel loved, but Kid Loki's words haunt him still. That boy changed, but no one's going to let him change. If he can't keep up the charade, everything is going to collapse. Thor will stop loving him, everything that he's built up in his current circumstances will shatter into tiny pieces, and there are no back up plans that he can carry through with. Most people hate Loki. Loki hates Loki. He did an absolutely unforgivable thing just because he could, one so bad he can't forgive himself for. Even without his guilt, he can't forgive himself.

It's very easy to see where his failure to properly emulate Kid Loki will mean that Thor will absolutely never forgive him. He's not a good person and he never will be, so it's just a matter of time. When he's relearning that maybe he can love, too, it's a bad endgame scenario.

And worst of all, it'll mean he did everything for absolutely nothing.