I never said that the people here were normal. What I did say is that I am being judged as if I am supposed to be normal. Imagine if you have gone your entire life without feeling any emotions, not anger, not happiness, not love. Then imagine suddenly being able to feel all those things and not understanding them. Imagine also being forced to feel the strongest emotions of others and having your own emotions being in conflict.

I had reached a balance and then suddenly one side became far heavier than the other. Yes it was a poor reaction, I do not deny that, but I was unprepared for such a drastic shift and had no idea how to cope. Everything was consumed by grief, I was in agony and would have done anything to end the pain. That doesn't make it right, not by a long shot, but when the emotions are that powerful, rational thought is almost impossible.