Okay, so Kon has both experienced and seen how Kal is with him when he's 'older'. He's experiencing now, just under different circumstances and he knows how long it takes to get to that level in the future. If Kon ever went home, he'd miss this and he knows it. He knows he'll miss being a closer part of the El family.
He likes that he doesn't feel like such a burden or that there's such a massive shadow that he's in. Kon likes that he can also go to Kal about almost anything and that he's not going to be treated differently? Like being pushed away, being accepted as Kon is something he's just always going to enjoy.
He doesn't know what he'd do if Kal ended going home, he'd be happy, but there'd be this horrible space because he just feels so much closer to him than he ever did.
I could go on, but I literally can't word everything in a coherent way.
Re: Zak
Okay, so Kon has both experienced and seen how Kal is with him when he's 'older'. He's experiencing now, just under different circumstances and he knows how long it takes to get to that level in the future. If Kon ever went home, he'd miss this and he knows it. He knows he'll miss being a closer part of the El family.
He likes that he doesn't feel like such a burden or that there's such a massive shadow that he's in. Kon likes that he can also go to Kal about almost anything and that he's not going to be treated differently? Like being pushed away, being accepted as Kon is something he's just always going to enjoy.
He doesn't know what he'd do if Kal ended going home, he'd be happy, but there'd be this horrible space because he just feels so much closer to him than he ever did.
I could go on, but I literally can't word everything in a coherent way.